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Busy-ness

I used to be a terrible procrastinator and would leave everything to the last minute. I’d usually get things done in the end but I would also waste an incredible amount of time ‘thinking’ about the things I had to do, instead of just ‘doing’ them. I would exhaust myself planning things in my head or feeling the burden of my ‘to do’ list. It would often overwhelm me to the point of inaction.

That feeling of being ‘busy’ was a very old habit and I got to see it was only a limiting story in my head – it wasn’t true. If I didn’t have that busy-ness it appeared that my life was boring and somehow empty.

Learning to remain present, here and now, has allowed me to give up that story, and the worry and anxiety that came along with it. It has been replaced with an immense amount of joy and contentment for what I’m doing right now. I still have the intention to do things in the future, but I’m not attached to when or how they get done; or even if they get done at all.

 As I play more with remaining present, I notice that everything gets done when it needs to be done and the chaotic thinking that used to go along with it has dissolved away. I now glide along with the river of life in the trusting knowledge that all will be presented when and if it needs to.

 There’s no laziness in this approach – it’s a very active choice to stay present to what is being presented right now. There’s more focus and enjoyment of the task in hand and far less stress about the future.

And from a slightly different perspective: for some of us the internal commentator has a tendency to suggest that we should be doing something now. Sometimes there is nothing to do. Look out for the thought that you should be doing something – let it go and notice if it feels right to be inactive. There can be great peace and comfort in being content doing nothing.

Sally